Missing you badly at the moment. This Tuesday it would be four years exactly since you went away. Still seems as if it was just yesterday that I last said goodbye to you.
These were taken two days before you passed away. The image is still fresh in my mind; of you lying there unconscious and us praying, despite knowing your days were numbered, that you would pull through somehow.
It still as hard as the day you went away - dealing with you being gone.
I was rereading my diary yesterday and it was a post for this year's hari raya (Eid) and I was writing how I'd forgotten to put in some ingredient and how I was thinking about you. I am always thinking about you.
Mommy I love you so much. There's not a day that passes by that I don't think of you.
I still think of how you love having your grey hair pulled. How you always had time to sit by and keep Abang company while he plays his games. How you would never fail to wake up in the middle of the night whenever Dad wants a bite to eat. How you never complained whenever Along needs to be massaged... And how you never tire of my incessant tirade.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
I love you Mommy and I pray that your soul is at peace and that you know how much you are still loved.
Al-Fatihah.
