Hello again Mommy. Just wanted to tell you that two nights ago before Abang went to sleep, he said he misses you and cried his heart out.
It has been a long time since Abang showed his pain of losing you... so much so that I sometimes wonder if you still run through his mind; I have my answer now, like the rest of the family he still sorely misses you.
It broke my heart that I couldn't do anything to ease his pain, I just held him and reminded him that you loved him so much.
He fell asleep with tears still falling.
It happens to me too sometime. And sometime I even cry in my sleep.
It doesn't seem to get easier with time Mom; it hurts just as badly as it did when we first learned that you were gone.
Truth is, every time I have these talks with you I am always rendered near to tears, and sometimes the tears couldn't be kept at bay and I have actually cried a few times while writing this to you.
I know the pain hurts, but I am glad I still feel it because it means you are still fresh in my mind.
I love you and miss you always. Al-Fatihah.